I am officially unemployed. It's the weirdest feeling EVER knowing I don't have to wake up early or be anywhere at any specific time. Quite surreal, to say the least. My last day was extremely bittersweet. For 5 years I worked at a non-profit servicing adults with developmental disabilities and have fallen in love with the people I work with (there are about 85 participants on-site, as well as about 12 staff) and saying goodbye to each one was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
After 5 years of working together, you get to know people on a level almost akin to family. It's not just personality quirks and bits of small talk you obtain, but deep friendships because like it or not, those are the people with whom you spend the majority of your time. They see you EVERY DAY: at your best, your worst and everything in-between. At work, we had a flow that naturally occurs when you know people really well. We made a great team and it really feels strange to leave them behind, like it really is the end of something special. Even though I worked with 100 people every day, I can honestly say I know each one on a personal level and I can call each one my friend.
As hard as it was that last day, I held it together without crying. I think I prepared myself for the heartbreak and shoved all the feelings deep down, in order to not sob uncontrollably for hours. I'm still waiting for them to surface at a most inconvenient time, possibly the next time I'm at the library or getting a haircut (even though I haven't stepped into either type of establishment in at least 2 years...but now I'm unemployed, so who knows? Anything could happen!). Special shout out to everyone that made me feel so super special on my last day; I got cards, gifts, pictures, lunch, drinks (after work) and lots and tons of hugs.
Although, I'm deeply saddened at the thought of not seeing my work family every day, I'm also relieved it's over. It's another life-altering event to check off my very long list. With each passing day, my life turns a couple degrees more, until eventually it'll all be upside down. I think that's how I'll know I've done everything right and we're finally ready to take off! We're getting closer and closer...
After 5 years of working together, you get to know people on a level almost akin to family. It's not just personality quirks and bits of small talk you obtain, but deep friendships because like it or not, those are the people with whom you spend the majority of your time. They see you EVERY DAY: at your best, your worst and everything in-between. At work, we had a flow that naturally occurs when you know people really well. We made a great team and it really feels strange to leave them behind, like it really is the end of something special. Even though I worked with 100 people every day, I can honestly say I know each one on a personal level and I can call each one my friend.
As hard as it was that last day, I held it together without crying. I think I prepared myself for the heartbreak and shoved all the feelings deep down, in order to not sob uncontrollably for hours. I'm still waiting for them to surface at a most inconvenient time, possibly the next time I'm at the library or getting a haircut (even though I haven't stepped into either type of establishment in at least 2 years...but now I'm unemployed, so who knows? Anything could happen!). Special shout out to everyone that made me feel so super special on my last day; I got cards, gifts, pictures, lunch, drinks (after work) and lots and tons of hugs.
Although, I'm deeply saddened at the thought of not seeing my work family every day, I'm also relieved it's over. It's another life-altering event to check off my very long list. With each passing day, my life turns a couple degrees more, until eventually it'll all be upside down. I think that's how I'll know I've done everything right and we're finally ready to take off! We're getting closer and closer...
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